When my son was about 3 years old, he tried his hand at graffiti. My wife and I were sitting downstairs with our newborn daughter watching TV. Then came the alerting sound of silence parents dread. Anytime a 3 year old is quiet, you know something’s up. My wife went upstairs and discovered the random, but deliberate freehand artform of our son.
Otherwise known as black Sharpie art.
He marked on the walls, books, doors, bookcase, vases, sculptures and toys. Wow. We let him know we weren’t appreciative of the artwork. We were disappointed in his choice, but we still loved him.
There are many times we act like 3 year-olds. We make bad choices. We hurt people with our words and we live with the consequences of our actions. Through all that, we can have a dark and disappointed view of ourselves. And having this view can start affecting our work performance and mess with our relationships. I know I had an attitude of self-loathing and I would sabotage myself. When we have this mindset of constant disappointment in ourselves, our self-esteem and empowerment drops like a rock in a pond.
But how does God see us?
“How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand”-Psalm 139:17,18
When my son had marked everything in sight, he had to know what the consequences were. But this didn’t change how I thought of him. I didn’t berate him for hours and days and weeks, etc. In fact, I held him for a bit and then we played together. I loved him then as I love him now. God is certainly no different. He’s loved you from the very beginning,
“For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.”-Psalm 139:13,14
Let me tell you the truth: We can not make God love us anymore than He already does. His love is constant and never grows dim. He’s knocked out about us. He doesn’t think about the dark words we said and the deeds we remind ourselves of. He doesn’t keep track of our mistakes. Psalm 139 says the grains of sand on a beach gives an idea of how many precious thoughts there are towards us.
God sees in us the potential, full happy life, the strength, the smiles, and the joy He’s built inside of us. He knows we need this constant view of us because we walk in the dark every once in awhile. When we’re getting down on ourselves we can remember and ask, “I know I’m disappointed in myself, but what does God see in me?”
And then read Psalm 139! And then live it out! Walk in that truth so you can help people out of their funk. We’re valuable to God, so let’s keep that close to our hearts and guard those words of God.